I don’t know where to even begin. Hopeless by Colleen Hoover BLEW.ME.AWAY. Butterflying Amazing. Colleen Hoover’s first two books, Slammed (see my review here) and Point of Retreat (see my review here) were are both in my favorites of 2012, now Hopeless is right up there with them. Silly me though. I started it on December 23. Was I nuts? When company came for Christmas Eve, I hadn’t even started preparing, and I actually snuck away twice to read a little.
“The sky is always beautiful. Even when it’s dark or rainy or cloudy, it’s still beautiful to look at. It’s my favorite thing because I know if I ever get lost or lonely or scared, I just have to look up and it’ll be there no matter what…and I know it’ll always be beautiful.”
The story started as a sweet, almost young adult story. The main characters are in high school, which is not my favorite age to read about now that my son is in high school. I knew how much everyone was loving this book, so I knew the sweet story would soon become more. But I was unprepared for how much more.
Sky. I love her spunky, quirky, real character and her best friend, and next-door neighbor, Six. Sky has been homeschooled her whole life and her adoptive mom doesn’t believe in technology, so she doesn’t have TV, internet or a cell phone. She has convinced her mom to allow her to attend public school for her senior year. Unfortunately, Six is studying abroad, but that does not deter Sky, so she begins high school alone. Just because she hasn’t gone to school though, doesn’t mean she isn’t known among her peers. Her friend Six, really likes boys and is a bit of a slut. Sky is usually with the ‘friend’. Though she hasn’t gone all the way with any boys, she sneaks them into her room and kisses them all because it makes her feel completely numb, a feeling she welcomes. She emotionally detaches and counts stars on her ceiling.
Until she sees Dean Holder in the grocery store:
“I’ve never been swept off my feet. I don’t get butterflies. In fact the whole idea of being swooned by anyone is foreign to me… Somehow, in the course of sixty seconds, this guy has managed to swoon me, then terrify the hell out of me.”
Immediately in school, Sky is bullied, with tons of dollar bills and notes stuck on and in her locker saying “slut” and “whore” but I loved her attitude:
“Really? Where’s the creativity in that? They couldn’t back it up with an interesting story? Maybe a few details of my indiscretion? If I have to read this shit every day, the least they could do is make it interesting. If I was going to stoop so low as to leave an unfounded note on someone’s locker, I’d at least have the courtesy of entertaining whoever reads it in the process. I’d write something interesting like, ‘I saw you in bed with my boyfriend last night. I really don’t appretiate you getting massage oil on my cucumbers. Whore.’ “
The gorgeous Holder has a reputation as well. For the last year, he was supposedly in juvie for a hate crime against a gay guy (but you know how rumors go). Holder has a tattoo with the word ‘Hopeless’ on his arm. He is intense, a man of few words who thinks very carefully before speaking. He is a young man of contradictions: sweet, sexy, protective and swoony, and closed off, tense and broody. Oh Holder, the more I learned about him, the more I wanted to learn.
“He reacts the way he does because there’s only one side to Dean Holder. Passionate.”
Together, Sky and Holder were amazing. You could feel the connection, the passion, and the witty dialogue between the two of them made the relationship fun to read about.
“Sky, I’m not kissing you tonight but believe me when I tell you, I’ve never wanted to kiss a girl more….but you are not getting kissed tonight. And probably not tomorrow either. I need this. I need to know for sure that you’re feeling every single thing that I’m feeling the moment my lips touch yours. Because I want your first kiss to be the best first kiss in the history of first kisses.”
“He wraps his pinky around mine as if he doesn’t have the strength to hold my entire hand. But it’s nice, because we’ve held hands before, but never pinkies…and I realize that this is another first we’ve passed. And realizing this doesn’t disappoint me, because I know that firsts don’t matter with him. He could kiss me for the first time, or the twentieth time, or the millionth time and I wouldn’t care if it was the first or not, because I’m pretty sure we just broke the record for the best first kiss in the history of first kisses-without even kissing.”
And what a first kiss it was. I wish I could go back in time to have my first kiss with my husband be that monumental. (SIDENOTE: Read Holder’s view of this amazing scene HERE after you finish this book)
“Live. If you mix the letters up in the words like and love, you get live. You can use that word.”
“I live you, Sky,” he says against my lips. “I live you so much.”
So there I was enjoying this amazing YA romance, when at about 60%, BAM! The shit hits the fan. I knew it would…..
“Life is real and sometimes it’s ugly and you just have to learn how to cope.”
“Sometimes you have to choose between a bunch of wrong choices and no right ones. You just have to choose which wrong choice feels the least wrong.”
And it just kept getting worse for them. One reveal after another had me riveted to my kindle, feeling for Sky and Holder the way I never thought I could feel for such a young couple.
“Fuck all the firsts, Sky. The only thing that matters to me with you are the forevers.”
“I want you to keep them open…because I need you to watch me give you the very last piece of my heart.”
- Sky: her quirky, I don’t care what anyone thinks attitude.
- Six: her best friend who sends her daily positive, ego building texts.
- Holder: intense, romantic, mature…amazing.
- Breckin, Sky’s new best friend at school.
- Holder’s daily, funny, ego-busting texts.
- The fun banter between the friends.
- The fact that you knew something was up all along, but could never figure it all out until you are meant to.
- How Colleen Hoover can take such dark subject matter and make it an enjoyable to read.
- Though I usually feel 17-18 is too young for so much, in this case it was perfect.
- Absolutely nothing.
Rating: 5+++ Stars, 2 for heat.
From the title, I was a little concerned about the book, it sounded like it could be a Debbie downer book. But WOW. It was better than I could have ever expected. Colleen has a way of taking what can be such dark depressing subjects and turning what could be hopeless into hopeful. I laughed, I cried, I swooned, I got angry, I held my breath, I sighed, I smiled, and what started out as me ‘living’ this book, turned into to me LOVING this book. This is one story that will stick with me, and I will recommend to anyone. Grab Hopeless now, you won’t regret it.
“And once again in my world full of heartaches and lies, this HOPELESS boy finds a way to make me smile.”
Hopeless can stand alone, but has two companions so far.
- My Favorite Books of 2012
- Slammed by Colleen Hoover was Life-Changing Good!
- Point of Retreat, The Perfect Follow-Up to Slammed
- Great New Adult Books for Older Teens and Up