“I’m not just falling in love with you, Nell. I’m falling into you.”
Falling Into You by Jasinda Wilder broke me, then put me back together again. I can not move on, and I can say with absolute certainty, that this will be on my Best of 2013 list. No doubt about it. Jasinda sent me an advance copy for review, and I never read the blurb. I knew there was some major emotions…but I knew nothing else. (Oh, and btw, I must apologize for my middle of the night nasty messages to you Jasinda…well, OK, not really.)
***DO NOT LET THIS SCARE YOU. READ THIS BOOK!***
As I read, I fell in love with the young couple. Kyle and Nell grew up together, BFFs throughout grade school and middle school. But at 16 years old, when Nell considered dating another guy, everything changed, and Kyle and Nell were ‘together’ as everyone knew they would eventually be.
“Kyle was my first one true love, my first in every way.”
Watching this young couple fall in love was beautiful. Despite the age, which would normally make me cringe, you can see this couple was meant to be each other’s firsts. Kyle was such a sweetheart, he called her lovely instead of hot, he NEVER pressured her, and always made sure she was ready for anything. I dare you to read this and not fall for him. Jasinda did such a great job of capturing that first time, (a good first time) with your first love.
As I fell deeper and deeper for Kyle over the years, I knew something would happen (it’s in the blurb, but I didn’t read it, so I’m not spoiling anything). I kept wanting to put it down…I found myself nervous every time they got in a car. But when it happened, I wasn’t prepared!
“I wanted nothing more than to climb into the box with him and quit breathing, find him in whatever came after life.”
I cried…I cried the ugly, tears. The wracking sobs…and I started to text Jasinda nasty messages.
This was me:
But not Nell…her misplaced guilt never allowed her to let go and mourn.
“It wasn’t a tear. I wouldn’t cry. Couldn’t. To let it go would be to open my soul. It would never stop. I would break…just shatter. The liquid on my cheek was blood, surging out from my ripped and tattered heart.”
When she finally is about to fall to pieces at the cemetery, Kyle’s older brother, Colton, is there. Colton has been away for a long time, and Nell barely remembers him. He is so different from Kyle’s golden boy personality. He’s big, rough, tattooed…and yet somehow familiar and comforting. There is an immediate spark between them…but it’s too soon, way too soon. Still, he provides comfort and understanding that nobody else does.
“I hold her. I don’t tell her it’s okay.
“Be mad,” I say. “Be hurt. Be broken. Cry.”
Both of their parents are very prominent figures in the community. Any sense of anything inappropriate would NOT be good, and they both know it. But neither ever quite forgot the connection. Cut to two years later, Colton is playing guitar and singing for cash in New York, and he sees her again.
“Now here she is. Why? I tried so hard to forget her, but still see her face, her body, glimpsed between a wet black dress….she haunts me.”
“I could write a song, and her name would be the music. I could sing, strum a guitar, and her body would be the melody.”
She joins him, taking out her own guitar.
“I know I have to choose my song carefully. We’re establishing a dialogue, here. We’re having a conversation in music.”
I must interject here and say how strongly music was integrated into this book. I will share the playlist at the end, and I think it would be great if you had the songs ready to go while you read. As they each came up, I listened to them and read the lyrics. Not only did I learn to appreciate new music that I never heard of, it totally made the book an interactive experience.
The next time Colton sees Nell, she is with another guy…a BIG guy.
“This is bad. I’m gonna end up in jail.”
He knows she is broken, utterly and totally. But after he rescues her from the jerk, he also knows it’s just the beginning.
“I can’t fix her. I know this too. I’m not going to try. I’ve had too many goody-goody girls hook up with me, thinking they can fix me. I also know I’m not going to stay away.”
She felt it too.
I can’t accurately say there’s a spark, with Colton, No, it’s way , way beyond a spark. Just looking at him lights a fire. Touching him, being touched, even innocent touches, even his hand in mine creates an inferno.
And when it happened:
“Take off your thong and spread your legs.”
“Say please.” I find strength in the game. My terror, my vulnerability abates, and I’m thankful. He just stares at me. I don’t move to comply. He just shakes his head and half-blinks in disbelief. And then he tugs my thong and it comes apart. He didn’t jerk it, he didn’t expend any effort. He just put two fingers around the string at my hip, two fingers of the other hand inside the triangle over my core and tugged. Rip. Gone. I’m naked. That easy.
“Now spread your legs and feel free to scream. No one can hear.”
Holy fuck. This book may have people of New Adult age, but the sex scenes were some of the hottest I’ve read. But there was so much more going on. So much.
“But moments like this, with Colton? They make it all bearable. He doesn’t fix me, doesn’t heal me. He just makes life worthwhile. he helps me remember to breathe, shows me how to smile again. He kisses me and I can forget pain.”
“I’m not just falling in love with you, Nell. I’m falling into you. You’re an ocean, and I’m falling in, drowning in the depths of who you are”
The two were meant for each other. They help each other heal. But they could never fully heal.
“But we have to learn to be be free. We have to, Nell. Doesn’t mean happy all the time, or okay all the time. It’s okay not to be okay. I told you that, but I’m relearning it myself. But not being okay doesn’t mean you stop living.”
There is so much more to this book. There is heartache, loss, forgiveness, passion, guilt…and so much love. And the sex was off-the-charts hot.
- Happy ending-no cliffhanger! Yay!
- Watching young love develop in a not-icky way.
- The heart wrenching emotion was replaced by happy tears.
- You FELT while reading this book. Really felt.
- Colton. Big, scary, tattooed, sexy, dominant Colton.
- Holy crap the sex was fuckhot!
- The perfect length. Not too long (but I wouldn’t have minded more), not too short.
- The book will stick with me. It is not forgettable.
- We changed POV throughout the book (I lOVED that!)
- The music aspect was great, I listened to music I never would have before, and it really added to the book.
- The original song lyrics were incredible, I’d love to hear them put to music!
- I wish there were an epilogue.
- There are a few sex terms Jasinda uses that aren’t my favorite, but she uses them way less in this book than her others.
Rating 5++++ Stars, 5 for heat
It has been a day and a half since I finished Falling Into You. I’m not ready to move on. I absolutely loved this book. It was the perfect blend of searing emotions, healing, love, loss, friendship, heartbreak, hot sex and so much more. Jasinda hit this one so far out of the park, that ball isn’t coming back.
“When we come together, when we kiss, when we drowse into sleep side by side, we’re falling into each other, and that’s when I’m okay When I’m falling into him.”
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