Beck (Corps Security 3) by Harper Sloan
Can Stand alone, but best if read in order. Stories are very interconnected. Adult Contemporary.
Beck is the third in the Corps Security Series by Harper Sloan, and I’ll admit, I didn’t feel much for Beck up until this book. I loved Dee though, so I was looking forward to reading their story. They’ve been on again/off again, and I was really curious what was really going on.
“I want it all. Mind, body, soul, and heart. I promise you that when we finally get there, it’s going to be worth the wait. When you open yourself up to me completely… Baby, you won’t even believe how good it’s going to be.”~Beck
Dee is both Izzy (from Axel) and Greg’s (Cage) best friend. The three of them were so close. Then Izzy found Axel, and Greg found Melissa. Dee was happy for her friends, but they were so busy, they couldn’t see the real Dee.
“I am Denise Ann Roberts. Strong, proud and independent. A loyal friend, godmother and I radiate fucking happiness so that people will never see how lonely I really am.”
We get a small taste of Dee’s past and the reason some of her walls are up.
“The first day I leave this hell, I am going to be a new person. I am going to be happy. I am going to be loved. And, I am going to find people to share my life with me that want to be around me. But I will never, ever, trust a boy.”
Then we go back three years to when she first meets Beck…back to the events in Axel. We see some of the same scenes unfold, this time from Dee’s POV. Boy, it sure seems different! I couldn’t wait to get to know the happy, fun Dee from Axel’s book. But in Beck, Dee was the farthest thing from it.
“But, inside? Inside, I’m dying. I’m not happy. I have amazing friends, and I know that they love me, but I am completely alone. Just like I have been my whole life, and the best part, the big kicker in my ass…I only have myself to blame.”
But I loved Dee’s reaction to Beck.
“My neglected vagina perks right up and says ‘hey…me, pick me’!
And how she describes Beck.
“Oh. My. God. He has got to be the most attractive man I have ever seen. He looks like a walking ad for pure, raw sex. The kind that stays with you for days, even months afterwards because it was that good. It looks as if someone has taken every panty-melting feature you could dream up and stuck them on his legs.”
Dee knew he could grow to care about Beck. She felt it right from the beginning, but promised herself she wouldn’t let him in because she didn’t want to deal with the pain of cheating, or not being first in her man’s eyes.
“I didn’t ask for forever. You want to live in the moment, and get off while you’re at it, I won’t judge you. But fair warning, I’ll do my best to change your mind.”~Beck
And boy, when they got together…
But as events unfold for Izzy, Dee retreats more into a depression and fear that she may never be able to get out of. Beck is there for her when nobody else (except Maddox. MmmmmMaddox) even realizes she has a problem.
“Everyone around us looks at our fucked up relationship and does nothing but judge. They only see the outside, the window dressing. They don’t see this side of Dee. They don’t see her when she hits her lowest points… No, everyone sees perfect Dee, happy Dee, and the Dee that never stops smiling, even when she’s dying on the inside.”
Beck is there with her, helping her get help, sticking by her side no matter how hard she pushes away.
“Everyone else kept giving you two shit, thinking you were playing some stupid fucking game, but if they would’ve opened their eyes for one second longer, they would’ve seen her hiding in plain sight with you fighting all her demons for her.”~Maddox
Dee pushed Beck away with all her might, but he knew she was worth hanging in there for, even if it took years.
“Not when my heart has always been yours. So no, Dee, there hasn’t been anyone else, and there won’t be anyone else. This is the longest we’ve ever gone without falling into each other, and I can wait as long as it takes for your head to catch up with your heart.”
Beck was a slower, more emotion packed book than Axel and Cage. It was a bit depressing at times, and needed a little more Sway to lighten things up. Luckily we had a little from my favorite little alpha, Cohen.
“Girls aren’t supposed to see wieners, Aunt Dee. And Daddy’s wiener was mad that Mommy saw. It was so mad, it was pointing at her!”
And believe me, it was still filled with HOT alpha sex.
“Do not shower. I want to know that I’m still inside you when you walk down those stairs and sit down at the table. When those assholes are sitting in the same room with you after just seeing what is mine, I want to know that I’m still all over this sweet pussy.”
And there was definitely some action and twists…OMG. Harper went there.
But Beck was more of a story of healing. A story of sticking with the person you love. About being a friend, and paying attention to your friends around you. People aren’t always the face they put out to the public. Everyone needs someone to lean on, and Dee was so lucky to have Beck who stuck around through all of her shit, loved her, and helped her through to the other side.
“When you love someone, you fight. You fight for them, and you fight with them. She needed me to fight for her then, and I’ll continue to do that until she can fight for herself again.”
- Beck is amazing, patient, alpha, and did I say patient?
- A lot more of Axel and Izzy and Cage and Melissa.
- I love Harper’s writing style. She is really coming into her own in this book.
- How Harper put us as readers, in the same position her friends were, only seeing Dee’s public face.
- Harper is not afraid to take a story places that may not be popular.
- Sway. Plus…I didn’t cry until Sway….(read it yourself, and don’t worry, nothing happens to Sway.)
- I wish we got to know Beck and his background and history more. What made him tick?
- I felt like Dee and Beck’s connection was told rather than shown to us. I would have loved to to have been there for the time when Beck was there for Dee so I would have felt their connection more.
- I found the book to be a little dragged out and repetitive at times, and I wish that time was spent better with more about Beck. There was just too much back and forth.
Rating 4-4.25 stars Heat 4.25 stars
Don’t get me wrong. I still loved Beck. But I wanted more of the man the book was named after. I think that the book would have been better off named Dee, because this was very much her journey, with Beck just being there waiting for her to heal. I still recommend this book with all of my heart, but it got a little repetitive, and was slightly depressing. I would have liked to see the couple together more than they they were apart. Still, I read it it one day, and ate up every word, and can’t wait to read Uncaged next!
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This is the second of THREE sets of giveaways from Harper this week. She is giving away a signed set of Axel, Cage Beck and Uncaged for my reviews of Cage, Beck and Uncaged, all this week. I reviewed Axel in January with 5 stars.